I wrote this poem today while I was going through a very scary health spell. Writing directed me attention away from my suffering and on to something else. It GREATLY got me through that rough patch. I am no poet, but I believe writing, among other things, is a God created source of help in times of trouble.
"The Gift" By: Me (Ashleigh)
Lord, please take away this pain,
it's just too much,
for it beats me down harder than rain.
Lord, I can't take all of these fears.
My eyes are so sore
from these ever flowing tears.
Lord, is it wrong to hope,
as I fall rapidly toward the valley,
down this steep slope?
Lord, I long for good health,
for I believe it to be greater
than all the world's wealth.
Lord, my heart beats to an extreme speed.
O, I ask that You slow it down,
I desperately plead!
Lord, I am so tired of this shortness of breath.
O, how I fear one more struggle to breath,
will lead to my young and wasted death.
Lord, I cannot die yet,
for You have trained me to be a visionary,
who longs for the day when I can be wife, mother, and missionary.
Lord, please slow my heart down, ease the pain, restore my breath,
and please O, please take away
this agonizing fear of death.
Lord, more than a fear of death, I fear a wasted life, that I long to live.
O please feel that good health for me
is the gift You desire to give.
Lord, I am so tired of these treatments.
This healing process is far too slow.
Will I ever enter a new season in my life? God only knows.
Lord, I pray that I do not hope for a better future in vain.
I pray there is purpose, preparation, and growth
from this hard beating rain.
Lord, I had planned on living a much different life
than the one I'm stuck in now.
O how I wish I could understand Your mysteries of the "Why?", "When?", and "How?".
Lord, why is this happening?
When will I be free? How long must I wait?
My God, this just can't be my doomed fate!
Lord, I know You better than this.
Healing and living life to the fullest
is my greatest prayer and wish.
Lord, You are a God of healing and a God of love.
Please lovingly send me the gift of healing
from up above!
2 comments:
Oh Ashleigh, that was lovely. I know exactly how you feel, those were the kinds of things racing through my mind these past several months. It is so very hard sometimes and the fear of the unknown is quite, quite scary.
This poem definitely describes how I've felt as well. It brought tears to my eyes.
You are very talented and I think you are a wonderful poet. I like to write poems as well and have some on my blog. I never could quite describe in poetry how I felt these past months, but you've done it for me.
You're always in my prayers, Ashleigh.
God bless you,
Katie
Thank you so much! It was very helpful to get all of those racing thoughts on to paper. You are so right! The fear of the unknown is very scary and a great faith tester. Thank you again for your prayers!
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